Recently, I thought about a well known mega church pastor out of the Atlanta area who was in the media for having sexual relations with 5 young men from his church. He got in front of the camera and said, “I feel like David, I got my 5 rocks and I haven’t thrown one yet.” A little time later, he settled out of court for untold millions to each of his accusers. The church world was talking about it everywhere you went, myself included. The many questions I had were:
If he is innocent, why settle out of court? Why couldn’t he have been caught with a female secretary instead of 5 young boys? Why is the church still supporting him after the fact? Why don’t his wife divorce and just leave? Why, why, why??????
Last night as I thought of this preacher and what he was allegedly guilty of, it was as if God put the mirror in my face and ask me: “What about YOU?”
Immediately I began seeing how I, even though I’ve never been with a man, I am guilty of being with women………countless women. How can I judge the mega preacher for public accusation when I have been guilty of not being able to control my hormones when alone with a beautiful woman? Sure, most would call me “normal” in what I did, and definitely not against the law. But in the eyes of God and as a Christian, I am GUILTY AS CHARGED! I judged this pastor of “gross sin” with boys at his church (allegedly) when I cannot count on one hand how many times I’ve been to my church without dreaming of a certain woman who probably didn’t even know I exist. The accusations say that the preacher was in bed with some of the boys in the past, and I’ve been in the bed with women too! What’s the difference? Sin is sin.
I can go on and on about my shortcomings and if my life were to end in this state, I’d be a great candidate for Hell’s fire. But what I can say is I will never ever judge this pastor again for what I’ve heard about him. I cannot throw the first stone because I have sin in my life (as with everyone else).
My job is to pray for him, the alleged victims and his wife and church. He is my brother in Christ. The same way I judge and react to his deeds, someone will react the same way to Larry’s deeds.
God, please forgive me for judging my brother. May you blot out my sins, forgive me of my many shortcomings and create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me. I’ve blown it so many times that if repenting was a song, I’d have sung more than most humans on Earth. I cannot judge any man but look in the mirror and see the flaws of he who stares back at me. God, make me a better man and in the image of you.