ONE WISH

If I had one wish, I’d wish to be popular

People see me say, “There’s no stoppin’ him!”

Everywhere I go, they’re screaming my name

When I travel overseas, the reactions the same.

When I shop at the mall, a huge crowd surrounds me,

In every place I go, a flashbulb hits me.

My doorbell keeps buzzing like a T.V. sequel

My dog stopped barking because he’s use to people.

Most people would hate all the attention that comes

With taking on the roll of being number one.

But my life is barren like an empty dish

So if I had the chance, this would be my wish.

My pastor would call and say, “I’ll see you at 5:00

At this point in my life, I feel i’ve arrived.

The brothers at church would call me up for advice

The sisters would fantasize of throwing the rice.

Moses was known for his rod and staff

But I will be famous for my autograph.

People at church now introduce me as “Friend”

I pray to God this fantasy never end.

Most people would hate all the attention that comes

With taking on the role of being Number One

But my life is barren like an empty dish

So if I had the chance, this would be my wish.

By:  Larry Nelson

This poem and others are compiled in my book:  For Virtuous Women Only.

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God bless you all and please keep me in your prayers!

Until next time…..

IT PUTS THINGS INTO PERSPECTIVE

Yesterday I attended the funeral of Mother Dorothy Walker, who led me to Christ at age 12.  I remember that day like it was yesterday.  We were driving on Highway 70 East coming from Abundant Life Fellowship in her long white Lincoln.  My mother didnt make it to church that day, but I did.  As we came home, she began talking about Christ and how He died for me.  I told her I didnt think I could “do it right” as far as being saved, but she assured me that God loved me and reminded me of all the benefits (and consequences).  After a few minutes, I went over the Sinner’s Prayer with her and I can honestly say is the best decision I’ve ever made in my 38 yrs on Earth.

I never got a chance to thank her for leading me to Christ, but I did say Thank You to her in my first book I published called FOR VIRTUOUS WOMEN ONLY.  I pray to God someone told her about it before she passed.  The one thing I notice about her 78 years of life (from the funeral’s obituary) is that she not only accomplished so much, but touched so many lives just as she did with me.  People who didnt make the funeral were asking me for the obituary to have since she touched their lives as well. 

One of the things that was said was how she was a tireless leader in the church.  As I heard and saw from the projector all of the things she did in the church (and outside of it’s walls) I began thinking about my life.  We all have one life to live on Earth before we pass into eternity.  I not only want to be right in the eyes of God, but live a life that is pleasing to Him.  I want to win souls for Him.  I want to tell people about this great God I serve called Jesus the Christ.  I want to touch lives before I leave this earth. 

Yes, I’ve been to many funerals in my life, and have heard many people LIE about the person in the casket to cover up the lack they may have or have not done.  But I know that woman, Dorothy Walker, touched lives for many years.  It put things into perspective for me.  I want to go out with a BANG and touch as many lives for Christ as I can.  I am far from being perfect as I have many flaws and scars.  But I promise myself this one thing:  I will live a life that will be pleasing to God, touch many lives and build up a great name for myself. 

I hate funerals with a passion, as I’m sure everyone else does.  But I can say this:  Her funeral put things into perspective for me.  I will be a WORLD CHANGER from this point on.

Until Next Time,

Larry Nelson

I AM FREE

Not long ago, someone I loved with an everlasting love betrayed me.  Said some very hurtful things and actually soiled my name with someone I called a new friend.  I was so upset, I only had one thing on my mind:  REVENGE!

My new friend went down the list of pathetic indictments on my character, not only as a writer, but as a person.  I listened as I was described as someone who I don’t know or recognize as a human being.  Someone who is heartless.  Someone who is a pathetic predator.  And with all these words coming from one whom I loved with a heartfelt love only God can give you, all I wanted was REVENGE!

Yes, I had the goods on my friends, to which anyone seeing (or listening) cannot say it was not that person.  But something happened to me tonight as I write this post:  No matter what someone says about me to soil my name and reputation, I must still love no matter what.  I spoke at a women’s conference last Saturday.  The turnout was absolutely great and my books sold out completely.  But there was one woman who spoke for about 10 to 15 minutes about her daughter being murdered at the age of 10.  She described how the woman who killed her didnt do a day in jail and how she planned her murder.  Once she got saved, years later, a woman walked up to her in the hair salon and ask her, “Do you remember me?”  She was startled to be standing face to face with the killer of her daughter.  What does she do?  Does she smack her?  Did she swing at the woman’s face?  Did she pull out a knife and stab her?  NO.  She stood up, hugged her and told her, “All is forgiven.”  The woman hugged her, cried for the longest time and left the salon. 

When I think of the level of forgiveness she has in her heart, what the HELL can someone say about me that will cause me to harbor hatred and malice?  This woman can never see her daughter on this side, but I still have breath in my body.  She can never hear her voice again, but I still wake up every day.  I’m saying all this to say:  I harbor zero hate against anyone who has crossed me.  I may have “the goods” on a person to make them look bad and severely cripple their professional life.  But God didnt make me that type of man.  I am free of hatred, I am free of trying to go “tit for tat” with a person.  And if someone sees me as whatever that person may have branded me as, I forgive no matter what. 

I am free of hatred and will NEVER allow that demon to enter my heart again.  And if that person ever would read this, I say:  I will NEVER try to assassinate your character.  When it’s all said and done, we are ALL God’s children and my mother raised me better than that.  I simply bless you in my thoughts and prayers.

Love you,

Until next time,

Larry Nelson

 

CHEATERS

I have an addiction:  I love the TV show CHEATERS.  Now don’t get me wrong, my heart goes out for the men and women who are on the losing end of it all.  Yet I cannot stop watching it.  When I first relocated to southern Illinois after my separation with my ex wife, I was glued into every single episode religiously.  In fact my good friend, Angela Williams was so sick of me watching it, she told me it was as if I went crazy watching each episode at her home. 

I guess when I watched the shows back in 06, I saw myself hiring CHEATERS and the woman was my ex.  But today when I watch it, it is more like well….reality TV.  I guess its just seeing people being 100% real.  No guards up.  No makeup on.  No phony.  Just getting the raw deal.  This morning, I watched an episode through my phone on YouTube.  In it, an older black man who appeared to be in his 50’s hired CHEATERS to follow his wife.  When the footage came back she was indeed cheating, he was so cool, calm and collected in his actions.  CHEATERS took him to a park where she was walking with her lover.  The guy stayed so ultra cool in the van…….until he saw her in the park as the vans pulled up.  Joey Grecco told him to wait, but he burst through those doors of the van and sprinted after her calling her names I will not say on this site.

On one side it was sort of amusing to me.  On another side, my heart went out to him, and the millions of other people who endure being cheated upon.  One thing about this show is this:  They will NEVER have a shortage of people who need help.  What is the allure of sex that causes people to leave their husband or wife for a few minutes of passion?  What (speaking from a male’s perspective) causes a man to see a set of “big legs” and all of a sudden his nature is gone into overdrive?  I mean if you think about it, what your wife has between her legs, the other woman does too.  Its not like you’ll go there and see two of them! 

I’m not trying to sound nasty, but simply saying its not like he’s gonna have a big surprise when he goes there.  Its the SAME THING!  The bible says:  In my flesh dwelleth NO GOOD THING.  I’m assuming in all of us there is a CHEATER lurking in the background.  When my time comes to get married again, I promise to give my wife the very best that I’ve got and never let go.  No, I didnt cheat then, and I will not do so in the future.  I just say this in agreement with my heart and spirit.  Whatever the case, I will be crowned Husband Of The Year by all who watch our marriage and the happiness that comes forth. 

Maybe they need a reality show called HAPPILY MARRIED.  I’d watch the couples act like Ward and June Cleaver and their children go about life so happy and free.  But maybe thats fantasy world.  Maybe its ficticious to even think that there will be a reality show with families like The Cosby Show, all happy and full of bliss.

Until that show comes out, I guess I’m stuck watching my show…..CHEATERS!

Until next time,

Larry Nelson

SISTER DOROTHY WALKER

At the age of 12 yrs old, I was coming back from Abundant Life Church in St.Louis, Mo.  My mom didn’t make it to church that Sunday, but I went.  We would get a ride from a lady name Dorothy Walker.  She use to drive this long white Lincoln and we would float on Highway 70 to listen to Pastor (now Bishop) Matthew Ferguson give us a word from God.   After service was over, we made our 30 minute track down the interstate towards home. 

As we drove, she began to ask me questions about my life.  (Yeah, at 12)  She began telling me about this Jesus and how I can live with him for eternity.  I was relunctant at first but as that big body Lincoln zoomed down the highway, but as she persisted, I gave in, said the Sinner’s Prayer and gave my heart to Christ.  She told me how happy she was for me and I went home a new man (yeah at 12), told my mom who was excited for me and actually gave my first sermon in the bedroom.  LOL

I am now 38.  I’ve had my share of mistakes and mishaps.  But no matter what has come my way, I knew that without Christ, I had NOTHING to stand on.  In this time, I’ve experience so many things that I know without the hand of God on my life, I should have been gone a long time ago.

I just received the news Saturday that Sis. Dorothy Walker has passed.  I will definitely make the funeral and show my respect to the woman who introduce me to Jesus.  I wrote a book called For Virtuous Women Only and actually thanked her in it for introducing me to Christ.  I hope she was able to get message, seeing as we attended different churches.  I will not go there sad or down in spirit.  I believe she was in her 80’s.  To me, that’s leaving here after living a Full Life. 

Because of what she did for me on Nov 23rd of 1986 changed my life.  I know Heaven is her new home and I pray that all who attend her funeral will smile and be blessed knowning she made it. 

Thank you, Sister Dorothy Walker

Larry Nelson

JUST ONE SHORT YEAR

I’m sitting here thinking today about how one short year can change your life.  In Feb of 2012, I was sitting on my apartment floor in downtown St. Louis, Mo writing down some ideas for a book.  I didnt know any publishers, didnt know how to submit my works.  Heck, I didnt even know where to begin!  But just one short year later, I’m not only an author, but my book is all throughout the United States.  (To GOD be the glory!)  Not only has their been many up’s but a few down’s as well:

In 2012, I didn’t know anyone from the East Coast.  Today, I have many contacts on the Eastern Seaboard.  In 2012, I never heard of Greenwood, Mississippi.  Today, I’ve made contacts there, Texas, Florida, etc.  The list is endless.  In 2012, I could care less about speaking in someone’s pullpit.  This past Saturday, I spoke at a Women’s Conference in Alton, Illinois.   In 2012, I could only dream of speaking engagements.  Today, I’m about to begin advertising The Purple Purse Luncheon…to support domestic abuse victims.  This event is in May of this year and I was ask to be keynote speaker, along with another nice lady I know.  God is so good.

The good far outweighs the bad, and yet I thank God for allowing me to go through it all.  I’m still here.  I’m still standing and I’m still humble.  Now my mind goes into fast forward:  Where will I be come Feb 2014?  What will be my destiny then?  How far will God carry me in this writing gift?  I know the sky is the limit and I’m not surprised at what He does in my life now.  I’m simply blessed.

I’ve had a few people actually tell me that they want to allign themselves with me simply because they see the future and God’s hand on my life.  I see it too, but I really wish they were with me when I was struggling.  I wish I had something to build on.  Anyone can hang with Tyler Perry once the blessings fall.  But who was there when he was homeless, sleeping in his car?  I wish I had someone…..ANYONE I could honestly say was there from day one. 

Whatever the case may be, I am grateful to God Almighty for giving me a platform to tell of His goodness and mercy in my life.  Wherever He takes me in this gift of creative writing, I’ll be satisfied.  I am still amazed at how in just one short year, my life is totally different. 

Just one short year………

Keep me in your prayers,

Larry Nelson

GETTING NERVOUS!

GETTING NERVOUS!

Today was a very unusual day for me. For starters, I had to go to a few meetings dealing with my book and future book signings. I met with my lawyer who set me up with a financial advisor who by the way say she loves the book and purchased my last 8 copies. Then I had to respond to lots of mail via email, facebook, twitter, wordpress, etc.

But nothing could have prepared me for what happened as I arrived back home. My lawyer told me that I needed to get home ASAP, as I had someone waiting for me. I’m wondering if she gave him my address! When I arrived, there was an older white gentleman dressed very casual. He introduce himself and said, “My name is Rev. ******* and someone gave me a copy of your book. I am interested in purchasing 100 to 200 books for my church.” I was floored, yet somewhat like Doubting Thomas, as we began talking. He wanted to go to a more comfortable place, so we went to Steak N Shake, down from my home and chatted. I told him I was waiting for the UPS man as we spoke. We talked about the concept of the book, my thoughts and future writings. I told him about my future trip to Simon & Schuster in June and he agreed to go with me if his schedule permits.

What really shocked me was as we chatted, I notice the UPS truck from the window and ask him if he didnt mind if I went down to my place to see if it was for me. He readily went with me, to my surprise, as the UPS man was just knocking on my door with a huge box. Well, I signed for the books and before I opened the box, the pastor said:
“I believe in your gift and already see where you’re headed in the future and I want to be a part of it.” He reached in his pocked and gave me $1,000. He said, “I’ll put these in my bookstore at my church,” as he politely took the box of books. I played cool, but was in shock.

We exchanged numbers and info as he agreed to purchase another $1,000 in a few weeks. He said, “I don’t sware, but we’ll seal it with a handshake.” I shook it and he prayed for me. He said, “Lord, there’s a heavy anointing on this young man’s life. You’ve shown me his future, which is prosperous and his writings will touch millions of lives. Thank you Lord for connecting us.” Afterwards he gave me his personal telephone number, home number, wife’s cell, secretary’s desk number and her cell as well. As he pulled off with an entire box of books I had not opened yet he said, “Your future is so bright, you better invest in a pair of shades!” He smiled and left.

My nosey neighbor who witnessed it started screaming, “I live next door to a celebrity!” to which I was hoping she would shut up! I went inside my place, counted the money and my heart started beating fast. Lord, am I ready for this type of fame? Am I ready to be catapulted in the spotlight?

About a month ago, I got 3 tweets from Bishop T.D. Jakes. I basically told him how his sermon: A Sacrifice Of A Praise blessed my life years ago. He responded with a thanks and how people didnt realize that God was using that sermon to minister to himself at the time he was going through. Then I briefly told him to PLEEEEEEASE read a few lines of an excerpt to my book, to which he responded: Very good work. Keep it up, and I may need you here to speak at MegaFest. I thanked him and that was that.

I told my mother about the tweets from none other than T.D. Jakes. She wasnt surprised. She said, “You think too small. Wait til Barock Obama calls for you, THEN you’ve arrived. You ain’t seen nothing yet!” Things are happening so fast for me, its scary, sort of nervous. To go from trying to be everyone’s friend to having people call me at ungodly hours of the night just to “chat”. I’m handling it with stride as it is still new to me. The Jakes tweet, although a complete honor, pales in comparison to chatting with my pastor David Hawkins about God, life and whatever else he decides to impart in me.

As I count this money again, I thought about how at one point I was struggling to make ends meet. Now, financial prosperity is coming at me so fast I am getting nervous.

Please keep me in your prayers as I develop into a better more complete man in the eyes of God.

His love and mines,
Larry Nelson